Recognizing Realizations and Reflections from Reality

By Karla Aguas - 10:23:00 PM

Wow! Talk about a hiatus! Actually, it's only really a hiatus if:

1. I actually really had a HUGE audience/group of blog readers who missed me (Hellloooo 3 blog readers! Haha)
2. I was never really online (which I have been, as you can see from my Twitter and Instagram posts)
3. I needed to get away to reflect about life

Number 3, is, however, kinda accurate. I have been reflecting on life and I've been doing a lot of thinking about where I am and where I want to be in my life. I've also been crazy busy (two jobs = no joke). So here I am now, on a Monday night, face filled with makeup (still haven't showered from taping earlier. Ew.) writing. Reflecting.

I think it's great to have Bible Study every Monday night because it really sets me up for the week. Tonight's Bible Study was very powerful because it tackled the topic: "What to do when you don't know what to do." Gaing noh? I wish it had given me a list of concrete things to do (don't we all just wish things came with a manual/survival guide?) but instead, it left me to reflect and ponder about how I am especially when I'm feeing lost or tired from life.

God speaks to us in the most unique and random ways. But nevertheless, His ways are always perfect. Tonight, after my dinner, I went on Tumbr and started scrolling down through pictures of delicious food, girls in bikinis (it's summer okay I follow summer themed accounts- I'm not a pervert!), shoes, Rihanna and Kardashian updates and of course, some spiritual and God themed accounts. I couldn't help but be moved when this post showed up on my dash. Allow me to share it with you all:




You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
Psalm 139:16, NLT.

Did you know that God has already recorded every part of your life from the beginning to the end? He knows every disappointment, every loss, every challenge; and the good news is that with Christ, your story ends in victory! God has written out a plan to bless and prosper you. When you choose His plan, your final chapter concludes with you fulfilling your God-given destiny. Here’s the key: when you go through a disappointment, when you go through a loss, don’t stop on that page in your life. You’ve got to decide to keep moving forward. There’s another chapter in front of you, but you’ve got to be willing to take the next step.
Sometimes, we get so focused on what didn’t work out that we stay stuck, reliving the disappointment. If that’s you, recognize that you’ve been on that page long enough. It’s time to let it go and turn the page to the new chapter God has in store. You may not understand, it may not have been fair, but remember, the next chapter is full of blessing, full of favor, and full of victory! Make the decision to let go of the old so you can move forward into the abundant life God has in store for you!

It's amazing how things speak to you, how things touch you and move you especially on days when life just seems to be getting harder, instead of easier. Reading this post made me reflect in my own ways, how I feel about MOVING FORWARD in life. And here's what I've come up with:
Karla's Top 3 Reasons Why we don't/can't move Forward in Life and WHY WE SHOULD:

1. It's so much easier to just keep looking back


The past is "great" because it's what's familiar. We already know what happened because we lived through it and it's over. But then when you really think about it, if we're not careful, the past can ruin us. I've seen relationships, careers and people destroyed because of the past. Because it was so much easier to look back at everything and not move forward. You can't drive to your destination if you keep looking at the rearview mirror.

Memories are safer than risks. We already know what happened and how it made us feel. So memories can't hurt us. Right?


I honestly believe that memories can do a lot more damage to you far longer than when they actually happened. People become so obsessed with reliving moments and looking back at times that they end hurting themselves because they live it again, over and over and over and the pain never goes away. How can you move forward when all you do is hold on to what is already gone?

2. The unknown is scary


There's nothing scarier than not knowing what comes next. I love planning my days out, knowing exactly what's going to happen and being ready for when it does. Moving forward is scary because we don't know what comes next. We don't know what's in store for us.

It's so much easier to just stay away from that and hide in our little comfort zone. But at the same time we have to realize how much we're robbing ourselves of new memories and discoveries. I always try to remind myself that things happen for reasons we may not know, like or accept now, but we will later on in life.



My heartbreaks, my failing grades, the rejection from jobs I wanted and gossip and bullying from people made me realize that things will never go how you want them to. Your plans will never be executed perfectly because in some weird way, something comes up. And instead of being afraid to try something new, compromise or think of a solution, we hide behind what we know and refuse to move. How unfair is that to yourself?

3. It's tiring to start over

I know, I know. It's so tiring to pick yourself up again and move on. Moving forward actually really sucks because it takes so much out of you to continue on. Whether it be a heartbreak, a loss of sorts, rejection or just plain bad days turned into weeks turned into months and years (you get the picture) moving forward has got to be the most work ever.


When I feel down or tired from life (we all have those days) I can't help but look around and compare myself to others. How others have it so easy and here I am having to pick up the pieces and move forward. Why me? Why this? Why now? I get so caught up in my own drama that I end up hindering myself from becoming better and more importantly, being grateful.

I don't even know if I made any sense tonight but I just want you to know that it's okay to be tired. It's okay to be scared. It's okay to feel like you can't go on. But I also want you to know that

You HAVE TO MOVE FORWARD.

You will never know what you are capable of if you don't push yourself. You will never see the Glory of God and His amazing plan for you if you give up.

I guess I needed to write this more for myself than anyone else. Selfish I know but I just needed to let it out Haha! Hope it made sense. :)

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12 comments

  1. your blogposts are always so timely and inspiring, i think i've said it enough but you really are someone i truly look up to! i saw you in aracama a few weeks ago and i really wanted to approach you and personally thank you for your inspiring blogposts, but i was too shy too hehe hopefully i get another opportunity to soon :-) - lar angeles

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    1. Uyyy did we tugs tugs together? Hehe! Thank you Lar, hope to meet you soon :)

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  2. Thanks for sharing whats on your mind/heart ate karla! May god bless you with all the decisions you'll make in the future.. Always remember that we are here to support you on everything!

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    1. Thank you for the never ending support, Sharmaine! You are a blessing! :)

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  3. It feels refreshing to read something quite relevant and sensible from the internet once in a while. It gives us a break from all of the nonsense issues or posts we see everyday. Your blog is a proof that social media really affects people nowadays, but in your case it doesn't just affect but rather inspires readers everywhere. :) It's always a pleasure to read your posts! Faith in social media restored! :) Thank you Karla!

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    1. Thank you, Monique! It makes me feel so good to know that one little blog entry of mine can help make someone feel better or put a smile on their face. I hope you continue to read this blog! :)

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  4. Thanks for this Karla! Even if you said that you write this for yourself, I'm really sure that it touches many readers as much as it touches mine. I think this isn't a drama for it talks more of the reality as you said. We all sometimes felt this way and its just a natural feeling. This may be surreal sometime to other people, but we do have this downfall feeling that we can't just escape off. Think I should move on too from all the expectations of people surrounding me, from all the heartbreaks upon being failed to all of my dreams and move on from all my drudgeries in life. It's hard to do, as we all say but I think it is the best way to live our life for us. I mean, live to the best way we can and free from all the pains from yesterday. Thanks for sharing! Everybody admire your blog. Keep going. :)
    xxCathy

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    1. Aww Cathy! Siyempre naman kinilig ako Hihi :) It feels so good to be back again and to finally be able to write back to you guys, It makes me feel like I can really talk to you and get to know you rin :)

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  5. Thank you for this Ate Karla. I feel like crying~ huhu Thank you ♥

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  6. Loved this, Karls! (can I call you Karls? Haha ang fc eh). Never knew that "Karla Aguas" could also have bad days. Akala ko before super everyday perfect kaya its harder sometimes to draw inspiration from someone who's living such a flawless life. Pero wait, don't get me wrong na I want you to have bad days pero this post just makes me and everyone else love you more :) Your flaws, insecurities, regrets and all those negative things are part of life and we also have those as well. This post is really relate-able!! Basta please keep doing what you're doing and post always PLEEAASEE!! Hahaha! Love you always, Karls! ;) - Mia Torres

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    1. I totally get you, Mia! Thank you for your kind words and honesty. I think at the end of the day we just gotta roll with the punches. Thank you for your comment and I hope you continue reading! :)

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