Hi guys! Did you all miss me? (Yuckk.. feeling may readers) Anyway, I feel really bad for not being able to update this blog with more Random Ramblings and sillyness but I've been CRAZY busy these past few days. I want to be able to share it ALL with you guys but unfortunately I can't just yet. I will, however, tell you just a little bit of what's been going on. :)

Let's face it, couples experience new and exciting things together all the time. From new food adventures to out of town trips, couples will always find ways to do things together. With this being said, I'm here to talk about the one thing I know every couple "goes through" together, every.single.month.

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Yeahp, you guessed it, THAT time of the month. Now I'm no expert or doctor, I'm just a girl, in a relationship, that goes through this every month with my boyfriend (I'm actually going through it right now). So I've decided to make a simple guide for all you guys out there to maybe, in some little way, help ease the pain that YOU are experiencing during THAT time of the month.

To those reading this, I hope you don't get offended with what I have to say or how I view things. Again, this is MY OWN OPINION and EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT. So if you don't agree with what I'm saying then feel free to stop reading. Remember, as much as this is a "helping guide" it is also meant to make you laugh, a form of "Real Life Entertainment."

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I would also like to make a shout out to my loving and caring (though sometimes insensitive and totally clueless) Bubba, who has been my constant companion for over 2 years- going through THAT time by my side.

Hi everyone, it's definitely been a while since my last real entry, post Coco's passing. Sorry if I flooded your Instagrams, Twitters and this blog with nothing but my love for my angel Coco, I am still trying to move on and be happy with the fact that he is in a better place.

Moving forward and facing reality, I'm now going to talk about a little Vietnamese Adventure I had with my family and Bubba during Holy Week- on Black Saturday we went all the way to Tagaytay for an adventure and some serious bonding. We hit up my sister Trina's friend's mom's restaurant (layo ng connection noh? Haha) for some DELICIOUS and FRESH Vietnamese food. So here's my take on a place that I think all of you should visit when you can- Bawai's. :)

I would first like to say thank you to all those that sent me tweets, emails, comments and messages of love, kindness and care. I know that it's not as "deep" or as "grave" as an actual loss of a relative or loved one but to me, this comes pretty close. So again, to all those that sent me messages, thank you. To all those that commented on my Instagram and assured me that Coco is in a better place, THANK YOU. And to everyone that just listened, my broken (but healing) heart will always be thankful.

It's only been two days but I have been trying very hard to see the bigger picture. I find myself going through an "Up-Down, Up-Down" situation. I cry for a bit, then I stop then I cry again. I guess when you look back at the memories that brought you so much happiness, you end up bringing yourself to tears. I miss him still, very very much and my heart continues to feel a pain I thought I had forgotten. This all seems so dramatic, yes, but when you really love someone or something, chances are you give a part of yourself. What makes this even more painful for me is that I know that Coco gave me all of himself. You see, dogs (I can't say the same for cats or other animals because I only really like dogs) love you with all that they are. With every fiber in there being you are the world to them. Which is why this hurts me so much. I know that I will no longer feel Coco's love for me.

But anyway, with all of this being said, I have been praying and asking the Lord to help me see what my pain is preventing me from seeing. Trusting in Him and His plans for me, I know now that Coco's passing needed to happen for me to realize a few things. Allow me to share with you some of the things I've learned from my loving angel, the cutest shih tzu in the world (in my eyes at least), Coco.

Hi Coco my baby boy, I miss you so much.

I can't believe you're gone and I can't believe I never got to say goodbye. I miss you so much and my heart feels like it's been torn to pieces because you're not around anymore. Please know that I love you very much and would give anything to see you one last time. I don't know why you were taken from me so suddenly, I don't know why it had to happen at this exact time, but whatever the reason may be, I know that you are in a much better place now. Allow me to say a few things to you though, okie Cocie?

Thank you. Thank you for always being there for me when I needed you. You may have not said anything, but I knew you loved me too. You know, I always wanted a Shih Tzu growing up. I always used to play with Tita Norma's shih tzu Chewy everytime we would visit them in Merville. I always wanted one but Mom and Dad never gave one to me. Then you happened.

I remember it was the same week that Dad announced that he was moving out, the same week that I watched him pack his bags and literally leave. I came home from school one day and there he was, standing in the sala, telling me that he had something for me. And when I moved closer there you were. You were so little and furry and cute. I remember shouting and running straight to pick you up and hold you. You were shaking cause I was holding you up so high but you didn't fight me or anything. Instead, you licked my arm and I knew I was going to love you forever. I even wanted to name you Max but for some reason, the name Coco just stuck. You were my baby.


You were there for me when everything seemed to be falling apart. You listened to my crying in my room when I would miss my dad and wonder why our family was falling apart. You were my only friend who I would come home to during my freshman year in high school because I was being bullied. You listened to me, you let me cry on your fur and you let me hug you until I fell asleep. You never said anything, no, dogs don't talk, but they sure do love. And you gave me so much love.

“A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than he loves himself.” 
― Josh Billings

You were there for me during the break ups. During the times that I felt my heart was going to break and crumble to pieces. You were the only "boy" who never left me, the only "boy" that understood. You always chose me, me over your own needs. God I remember crying in my room and you would silently walk on over to me and lick my hand, something you would do so I knew I could just pick you up and hug you. You were there for me Coco, always. I can't believe you aren't anymore.

I'm sorry for getting mad at you when you would bark. I wish I could hear your bark one more time. I'm sorry that I got busy with life and left you behind. I'm so sorry I got so busy. I'm sorry I never made you lambing enough. I'm so sorry that I didn't hug you enough and cuddle with you enough. I'm so sorry Coco. I regret it now, big time. I miss you so much it hurts. I keep trying not to cry but all I can remember is your cute fat furry face and how you would always freak out whenever I had food. I miss seeing your cute little face and hearing your annoyingly cute bark. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE GONE.


Please know that I loved you very much. I never meant for anything bad to happen to you. I can't believe what happened. Her negligence and sorry to say, stupidity is unbelievable. It's taking all the strength I have in me not to kill her Coco. Really. I want to strangle her with the same damn string. But I know it won't bring you back. My anger and hate for her will never bring you back. You're in doggy Heaven now and I can't wait to see you again. I guess what I have to do now is learn to forgive her. I know it's not going to happen right now cause I'm still in so much pain but I know I can forgive her someday. I just can't believe you were taken from me so soon.

“Dogs have given us their absolute all. We are the center of their universe. We are the focus of their love and faith and trust. They serve us in return for scraps. It is without a doubt the best deal man has ever made. ” 
― Roger Caras

I love you so much Coco. And I really do miss you. My heart doesn't feel the same and I haven't cried this much since Dad left. Not even the breakup and bullying cries were this bad. I hope you know how much I love you and miss you. I want to hug you again one last time!

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To all those that sent me messages and tweets, thank you. It means a lot to know that in some little ways, you guys care. Thank you for letting me know that Coco felt loved even if you don't know me personally. Thank you to my friends whom I haven't even seen for a long time, for messaging me and asking me if I was okay. I'm not but I will be. I just miss him so much.

“The dog is the most faithful of animals and would be much esteemed were it not so common. Our Lord God has made His greatest gifts the commonest.” 
― Martin Luther

He was really more than just a dog to me. He was a friend. And it makes you stop and think about life and how short it really is. I encourage you all to hug and cuddle with your pets, whether they be dogs, cats or whatever it is you have. Make them know how much you love them because THEY LOVE YOU SO MUCH. They love you without any hidden agenda. They love you not for your money or fame or looks. They love you for you. And you need to let them know that you know that. Let them know that you love them. Don't make the same mistake I did. Don't leave them behind.

Happy Monday guys and gals! Let's start the week right with some HOTNESS (and no, I don't mean pictures of me HAHA #choz)

I decided to make a fun little entry on some of the women that I have the BIGGEST and FATTEST girl crushes on. I swear, these women, HOYMAY HOT TAMALE! I love them for their confidence, looks and how they carry themselves! :)

P.S. I'm really proud of the photo collages I made for each of them. I do not own any of these pictures (duh) and most were taken either from Tumblr or Google Images :) Yes, I'm a stalker HUHU

Hi everyone! :)

So as you all know, this Holy Week, my family and I went to BHS to do our Stations of the Cross, a tradition we have and something we do every year since Church Simplified started this. My first ever entry can be found on my old Tumblr account. READ IT HERE. :)

I just want to share with all the different Stations and how wonderful it is to be able to participate whole-heartedly with something so interactive. I really love how Church Simplified makes the Walkway every year because despite them using similar words, stories and activities, the message ALWAYS CHANGES. Every year. I hope you enjoy my Walk with Jesus.

Just had to make this short entry because I really don't understand why some things happen the way that they do and by people that you never thought in a million years would do it. I guess it just all comes down to the hard hitting truth that we're all human and really, you never know what people are truly capable of. I'm not going to share what exactly it is I'm going through because as much as I love making kwento and posting on this blog, I really feel some things are better kept private. I would, however, like to share a few things I got this morning.

First, my mom called me at work. She spoke to me for over 40 minutes letting me know how much she loves me and that no matter what happens in life I will always be her baby and she will always be my mommy. Umiyak ako ng todo can I just share. My mom and I don't have the perfect relationship and for a very long time we weren't in speaking terms. I've been a very bad kid at times and very hard to deal with. She's a person too and sometimes her emotions and feelings get the better of her as well. Regardless of what has happened in the past, however, we have both promised that moving forward the past will remain in the past. I'm happy to say that through all of this gulo and sadness (that just started up last night) she is letting me know that she will be with me all throughout and we will go through it together since we are hurting, together. I am already so blessed to have her and I honestly don't even deserve her.

It really helps when God is a big part of your life. I'm not saying I'm a saint or a perfect person- I have my flaws and faults and I'm trying to move forward and be better. With this being said, I think it's also important to have God play a BIG part in your relationship. I love my Bubba very much and he really tries his best to be better for our relationship. I do the same. He knows what I'm going through and shares in my pain. I've never met or been with someone who loves me as much as he does and I thank God for him every single day. Just this morning, amidst all the hurt and tears, my Bubba sent me a text message that really moved me and made me cry even more (NOT because it made me sad though okay Haha..) here's what it said:

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"How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death, and my enemy will say, 'I have overcome him,' and my foes will rejoice when I fall. But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation."

And then he added this prayer:

"Lord please give us Your grace to trust in Your unfailing love when we get discouraged because some problems take so long to get resolved. Please remind us that even when it seems like You are ignoring us, You always have our best interest at heart."

I was beyond moved. Moved to tears at the text. God really does work in such mysterious ways and through the RIGHT people. I am so blessed and lucky to have my Bubba in my life- a man who is constantly changing for the better, growing more in love, in Faith and in God.

After this moving text, I got another text from my older sister Trina. Growing up she and I never really got close. I am happy, however, that these past few years have been good for our relationship and though we fight at times and I "hate" her, I now really do look up to her for a lot of things. She is a wonderful older sister, flaws and all. She is also the reason why I started attending Bible study. I join her and her ALP group every Monday for Bible Study and since then I have made a vow to better myself and fix my relationship with God. Here's what she sent me:

"I have promised to meet all your needs according to My glorious riches. Your deepest, most constant need is for My Peace. I have planted Peace in the garden of your heart, where I live; but there are weeds growing there too: pride, worry, selfishness, unbelief. I am the Gardener, and I am working to rid your heart of those weeds. I do My work in various ways. When you sit quietly with Me, I shine the Light of My Presence directly into your heart. In this heavenly Light, Peace grows abundantly and weeds shrivel up. I also send trials into your life. When you trust Me in the midst of trouble, Peace flourishes and weeds die away. Thank Me for troublesome situations; the Peace then can produce far outweighs the trials you endure."

"And my God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:19

"For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." - 2 Corinthians 4:17

You know, regardless of what it is that you are going through, as long as you have Faith in the Lord and His marvelous deeds and power, you will never fall. I think that these things happen to us to test our Faith and strength of character. These are challenges that we need in order to shed away some more weeds and continue to grow in becoming the best versions of ourselves. My life is not perfect. I do not do good deeds everyday. I am no saint and I have many sins. But I am blessed. Blessed to have these people in my life.

So thank you, Mom, Nics and Trin- you three have really helped make my day so much better. You are my angels.

Hello everyone!!! It's good to be back! :)

Sorry for taking a leave during Holy Week (uyy, feeling may readers HAHA) but I really wanted to focus on strengthening my relationship with God and my family. Plus, I had a lot to pray for and I really wanted to devote this special time to HIM. I plan on posting a ton of blog entries about my adventures during Holy Week but for now I will leave you all with a short but fun entry again on some of the things I've posted on Instagram and love. I promise to upload more wordy (if you like how I write) entries about my food trip adventures so I hope you come back for those as well! :)




Thuringer Sausage with Potato Risotto from Bistecca

This is what I had during Easter lunch with my Mom and older sister Trina. Can I just share that this is probably the BEST thing to come out from Germany after German Shepherds!? It's crazyyy good and I loved every bite! I suggest ordering this for sharing though. The waiter forgot to tell me that it was good enough for gee, I don't know, two people! But I finished the whole thing happily. It was too good to stop (that's what she said). Paired with a side order of Bistecca's awesome Truffle fries you're good to go for one delicious food coma! It's P600 pesos and the fries are P220. Bistecca is located outside of Powerplant Mall, near Santi's Deli. Definitely a must try! :)