When God Speaks To You

By Karla Aguas - 3:23:00 PM

I'm sitting in my office desk right now, trying not to cry. I literally needed to take a moment to write all of this down because I just had the most WONDERFUL experience and I needed to share it with all of you before I forgot every single detail of it. So let me get started.

For the past few weeks, I've been really down. And for the past few days, I've been EXTRA down. I would find myself crying in the bathroom, in the car and in my room all because I was so unhappy. I wasn't unhappy because of my family, friends or my Bubba, no, I was unhappy about something more "adult like," my job.

Don't get me wrong, I am thankful that no matter how small it is I earn, I am actually making my OWN money. Everything that I buy comes from my hardwork. I am able to contribute to the house expenses and I can treat my loved ones to a good meal or a night out. It's just that, well, to put it bluntly, I didn't think I would end up in this kind of a job. My job consists of basically sitting in a desk, editing things and handling website stuff. I get to go to fun events from time to time and I meet tons of people which is great for networking but at the end of the day, it isn't where I thought I would be after college. So here I am right, crying and crying, feeling so sorry for myself (pagbigyan mo na, pity party for one please) and I would be in such a bad mood a lot and I would even go as far as comparing salaries and job perks with friends to make myself even MORE miserable (sadistic ka, teh?) so there. Now, why am I saying all these things when my title is "When God Speaks To You"? Well, because right now, today, He spoke to me. He spoke to me through a person I never thought would say something like this to me.

We have a facilities and organization group who we refer to as the SMS- they handle all the moving and setting up of our events and special occasions. One of the men there is Sir June and I've come to love him very much. He's an adorable, chubby and a little short man who has one leg that is shorter than the other which makes him limp every time he walks (imagine how much of an EFFORT that already is). What I love most about Sir June is he is always smiling and EVERY TIME (without fail) he sees me, he always greets me with the warmest smile and ALWAYS addresses me as "Ma'am" (I'm actually a little uncomfortable when people at the office call me Ma'am or Ms. Karla especially when they're much older than me but I know it's a respect thing which I appreciate) Anyway...

So I just got back from a lunch date with my Mom and I dreaded coming back to the office. I just wanted to spend time with her and forget all about my job. But, of course, duty calls and I dragged myself back to the office. So here I am feeling down and I decide to go grab some water- there in the pantry I find Sir June heating food in the microwave. I smiled and greeted him and asked him why he was only eating now (It's 3 PM in the afternoon) and he said he hadn't had time to eat during lunch. When I asked why, he smiled and animatedly made me "kwento" his story:

Yesterday night, our company hosted a dinner that had a lot of important guests invited. Because Sir June is one of the heads of the SMS, he had to oversee the entire event which lasted until 1:00 AM this morning. He then went home, and arrived at the office today at 7:00 AM because there was an important breakfast meeting at 8:30 which he had to oversee again. He basically only had what? 4 hours of sleep?

When he told me this my jaw dropped. I even said it was so crazy that it ended so late and that he had to be at work so early the following day. I told him that if it was me in his place I would've cried and not shown up (it's the truth, I would probably be unconscious in bed from the late work night!) and I also asked him how he manages to be so tired and filled to the brim with work but still smile and be so friendly. And this is what he said, which I believe was what God wanted me to hear-

"Eh Ma'am, trabaho po talaga ito eh, okay lang. Kailangan, masaya lang pa rin parati."

OH MY GOD. HOW YOU SPEAK TO ME, I WILL ALWAYS BE AMAZED.

Here is a man who pays so many more bills than I do, has so many more problems to worry about that don't involve petty things like shopping money, pocket money for trips abroad and how to pay for haircuts and manicures. A man SO SIMPLE and SO HARDWORKING. It really hit me and I almost cried. It made me go back to my desk now and write this. I am so struck by it. Such a simple message. Kailangan, masaya pa rin parati.

It really makes you rethink things and realize all these blessings. My goodness, my problems are so petty compared to so many more people out there and I have the audacity to complain?? Geesh! I'm not saying I'm going to completely stop complaining (just being realistic here) but I sure as heck am going to start finding more reasons to feel GOOD rather than BAD.

So thank you, Lord, for blessing me with people like Sir June. People who are LIVING PROOF that it's all about PERSPECTIVE and how you VIEW THINGS. I am in awe at his simple words. And I am in awe at how You speak to us all. Thank You.

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23 comments

  1. Got goosebumps reading this. It is actually my first time to comment on ANY blog because this struck me the most. I am amazed to see the fact that God uses anyone just for Him to comfort us and to remind us that all things happen for a reason. Continue sharin the things God has done and is still are doing for you, Karla!

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    1. Wow thank you! I am so touched that this entry from my blog is the first you've ever commented on. Really. Just goes to show God's power and might! Thank you I definitely will! To God be all the glory! :)

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  2. Hi! Good day ate Karla! :)

    I just want to share how I experienced GOD'S AMAZING POWER and HOW GOD SPEAKS TO ME...

    It was Feb 4 when something unexpected happened to me (something good/positive). And when I got home and do my devotion(bible reading) this is the rhema I got which I wrote in my so-called "Personal Devotion" notebook:

    "God works in different ways, but it is the same God who does the work in all of us" [1 Corinthians 12:6]

    And there I said that God really works in different ways. It is overwhelming to talk to God through praying then He will answer you through the Bible. There I feel that God speaks to me answer me.

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    Thank you for this wonderful and inspirational entry!
    Please keep doing this kind of entry coz I love reading it :)

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    1. WOW! Thank you for sharing this verse! I love it and saved it myself! You know, God really speaks to us THROUGH everyone around us. I love that about Him. I never feel alone. Ever. I agree with you, we should definitely pray even HARDER when we feel like we can't pray at all. It's always a choice whether to keep going or just give up. God wants us to know that if we continue on, He will always be with us, right by our side, and the journey won't seem that hard anymore. :) Thank you again!

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  3. Nakakaiyak naman tong simple pero kabog mong entry Ms. :) Ang Ganda! Parang sakto din sakin 'to. Hehe
    Tama naman no? Kailangan, masaya pa rin parati. :) Isipin mo na lang Ms. na may purpose kung bakit ka nasa sitwasyon na yan, tsaka nilagay ka ni God dyan kasi alam nya na kaya mo, hindi para subukin kung kaya mo. :) Smile lang palagi. Positive lang! :D Aja! :*

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    1. Umiyak din ako! Grabe si Sir June! Idol ka na siya forever Hihi :') Yes, it's all about perspective and I think I just have to try harder to see it that way. Thank you for letting me know how you feel about it. It means a lot :)

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  4. I understand how you feel. I felt the same way when I was still at my first job. I would drag myself to work every day, cry when I got home at night, and I would find every reason to go on sick leave. After 10 months of being miserable, I was able to transfer to my current job. To say that I love my job now is an understatement :) I'm happy doing what I do, I get along perfectly with my workmates-it's like everything just fell into place. Maybe God wanted to teach me some lessons first before He gives me what I truly want. Maybe He's doing the same thing to you? :) Just hang in there. Tiis tiis lang muna. The important thing is, you have a job. Ang daming tao dyan na hirap na hirap makakuha ng trabaho :( One day, God just might surprise you with your dream job. Until then, do your best in your current job and learn everything you can so that when the dream job comes, ready ka :) Good luck!

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    1. How blessed you are! I can only hope and pray to be where you are soon. Thank you for sharing your story with me and my readers. It really has helped make me feel better and hope for the better. Right now I will just leave it up to God and work my hardest and best so that at least I can say that I gave it my all. Thank you so much, Pia! What a blessing! :)

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  5. I'm currently feeling the same. I have been feeling unhappy about my work not because I don't earn that much, not because of the pressure,not because of the people around me, but simply because I am not happy anymore. I don't know if its a temporary feeling given the fact that it's peak season, but I'm hoping to get over and do something about this soon. :) Anyway, we work in the same Company (different department though) and I love your blog. :)

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    1. Hello fellow company mate! Aww yes, it is busy season for the other departments, I'll be sure to pray for you. Thank you for visiting my blog :)

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  6. I love this entry! I am going through the same phase. At first, after graduating from college, I thought this was what I really wanted to do. Well yeah, I still do enjoy some of the things I do for work, but there are times when I question myself if this what I really want to do for life. I feel like I am still uncertain of what I really want to do in the future.

    Anyway, I still give my very best in every task and duty assigned for me to do; and I know that God will always be there to guide me and bless me. Just hold on there, Karla. :) We should not be afraid because God will give us what is best for us, only that He wants us to be ready when that comes. :)

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    1. Yes! Amen! The best in everything, even if you feel it isn't for you, you should always give the best. I am struggling with this but hopeful that I will be able to just breathe and let go. This is all a learning process and God has His reasons. I should just really trust in Him and His plans for me more. :)

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  7. I can totally relate, I seldom complain about my job (overtime,tons of paperworks, conflict w/ ur boss). But come to think of it, there are lots of people who have more reasons to complain, who suffers much, who have lots of problems more than I do. That's why I'm guilty of always being a complainant.And I promise GOD that I'll be more appreciative of what I have and be thankful for it.

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    1. Exactly, Hazel! I totally agree with you. We should always keep in mind that we are Blessed and that God never fails and never forgets. We just have to be more patient and grateful for everything that comes our way, good and bad :)

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  8. Thank you for this wonderful blog that you have made! Honestly, I've also been feeling down lately and I couldn't exactly tell people how miserable I view my life right now. And how I seem to start isolating myself from others because of my depression. It seems that being a Mass Communication student took its toll on me.

    There are a lot of paper work to be done. But what disappointed me the most was having to receive low grades for the scripts I worked hard for.

    After I read your blog, I think I've come to a different perspective that, indeed, everything that happens in my life comes with a reason. Before, I feel too confident, I think that God humbled me by giving me low grades. Thank you ate Karla, it's really refreshing to read your blogs. It's amazing how God works in your life right now. And somehow this blog got through my system, and I'm inspired to have the mentality that even with all the misfortunes I think I'm experiencing right now. I only have to remember this line, "Kailangan, masaya pa rin parati." To God be all the glory! :)

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    1. Hi Jean! I'm glad that you saw the positive part of the bad experience you had. God really has different and unconventional ways of teaching us lessons about life and ourselves. We just have to constantly remind ourselves to keep pushing and believe that in the end, it is for the best. God will NEVER give us something He knows we cannot handle. Good luck! :)

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  9. I feel the same way about my job too. :( I cry when I get home because I hate everything about my job. But I'm still grateful because I know there are others who have bigger problems than I do. I still continue to pray because I know, soon, I will get the job which God has specifically chosen for me. I've said a prayer for you already. I hope we both get our dream jobs soon. :) And thank you to Sir June. He is an inspiration. :)

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    1. I know how you feel, dear. But you're right, we have to remember that at the end of the day we are lucky enough to even have a job and earn a stable income. Thank you for your prayers! I will be praying for you, too. Yes! Sir June is definitely a BLESSING! :)

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  10. Hi Karla! I didn't know that you are into blogging, too ;) I can relate to your entry now. I definitely love the students I have been helping/serving/nurturing.., name the terms that refer to formation, in my work at the school, but I also struggle with my own financial issues and the question on how to address them with a work that is also close to my heart and skill set. Because even if one earns really good but sucks the job, then that's a piece of hell for me.

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    1. Hi Ben! Yup I just recently opened this blog and I think I am going to keep on blogging here for a while :) I agree with you- I really think that it's not ALWAYS about the money. If you love what you do then you will never have to work a day in your life. I envy those that can say that about their jobs. I guess I am still waiting for the job God wants for me. I just have to be patient and learn as much as I can from this company :)

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    2. I understand when you said that you missed school after working for around nine months. Don't worry. That's normal. I guess even the graduating students from your and my school will say the same after entering this phase of setting out to a career journey. On your fourth sentence, I also dream to say the same - when one realizes that what s/he does in work seems to be the air that one breathes life to him/her everyday. We just keep on building on what we can do at the present, and maybe when we talk again about work/career (in the next get-together), then hopefully we are in the high spirits to declare we are indeed happy in what we do.

      Thanks again for spearheading the gathering. It is good to have known you more during the get-together. God bless :)

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  11. Hi Ms. Karla, I really like your entries. Naiinspire mo ko do to my best. This is my first time ever to comment at nung nabasa ko to, it really hit me. I'm experiencing the same thing when it comes to work. Pero as you said, kahit anong mangyari, dapat masaya pa rin. Thank you so much kasi through your entries, nakakatulong ka sa ibang tao. Hope you continue what you're doing. God bless :)

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    1. Thank you so much for that! I really do hope that in some little way, my entries can help people with little things in their lives. Yes, as hard as the day can get, we always have to remember that we are blessed and we need to be thankful for whatever it is we face. Just keep on doing your best sweetie! :)

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