Our Best Friend
2:20:00 PM
Here is another entry I'd like to share with you all from my old blog. This is something that I wrote and mean with all my heart and I hope it doesn't come across as preachy or fake. It is sincere and I hope that you feel or will feel the same way I do after reading this. Here is a little entry on the best kind of Friend.
With a capital F. ;)
This entry is about the one and only true and best Friend I have had the pleasure of meeting in my life, the only friend I know who will stay with me through it all and love me for me...
God.
Okay. If this is too cheesy for you, if you do not share the same sentiments as me, if you think this is cliche and totally "fake" of me to be writing about, then please, feel free to stop reading. Close this window and go back to your Twitter, Facebook or whatever it is you were doing. But for those who share the same feelings as me, or want to, then please, read on. :)
So what made me decide to write about Him? Well, honestly, I think it was and is Him. I guess in some way, He has helped me realize that I can write about whatever and whoever I want to write about. How it is not only therapeutic for me, but in some way, it helps someone out there (Hey, I have a couple of emails and tweets to prove my blog entries help people Haha :P)
Okay Karla, we get it... Now can you like, get to the point? What is it about Him you want to talk about?
Well, how He's my bestfriend. My very bestfriend.
I am one of the most protective people I know. If someone tries to hurt the one I love or someone I care deeply about, I snap. I snap and I get even. I guess it comes with the fact that I trust easily, too easily, actually. And it always blows up in my face in the end. I'll be the first to admit that I am far from perfect- I have the worst temper, I keep to myself when I have problems, I can be mean, selfish, superficial and self-centered. I'm as flawed as the next person. But the one thing I know I can be proud of and people can attest to is that I am loyal. And when I care, I care with all that I am.
In the past, and even recently, I have befriended people that were wrong for me. I'm not saying they were or are bad people, but they were just bad for me. They brought out the worst in me and honestly I can't blame them for it. I wanted to be the person I was when I was with them. And it ended up hurting me. One by one, over the little things, they left me. Hurt me. Cursed me. Bad mouthed me and twisted my words to make me come out to be a monster. I died. I couldn't believe it. I had lost not only the people who I thought were my closest friends, but I had lost myself in the process. I hated myself and I hated what I had become. I had no one to talk to. I had no one to lean on. To trust. To love me aside from my family.
Or at least I thought I did.
Then I met Him. I had met Him again. He had come into my life again when no one else wanted to be there. And you know what I came to realize? He had never left. He was always there. It was me who had turned away. It was me who chose not to talk to Him. Seek Him. Trust Him. Love Him. And then my life changed.
I'm not saying I'm a saint now. Or that I pray every minute and curse less. I have my moments. But I have also changed in so many ways. I have mellowed down. I have calmed down. I found peace.
With all the problems I'm faced with now, there are days when I just don't want to get up from bed. When I want it to swallow me whole and never let me go. I have days where I feel I'm at my ugliest, fattest, stupidest and just plain awful. And then I pray. On the days when I don't want to pray, I pray even harder. And you know what? It works.
I've been reading this book called Just Like Jesus by Max Lucado and it has changed me. Allow me to share some quotes from the book that have hit me and will hopefully hit you as well.
"Don't confuse God's love with the love of people. The love of people often increases with performance and decreases with mistakes. Not so with God's love. He loves you right where you are."
Think back to those who have hurt you. To those who have betrayed your trust in the worst possible way. When I read this line I thought of the people I once called my friends. And you know what? This quote was right. Whenever I made a mistake, there was always one person who still loved me the same, NOT LESS. And that was and is Him. He isn't like those friends that treat you differently when you screw up. Like that friend who's only there for convenience (wake up dear, that's not even a real friend to begin with), or that friend who judges you because they think they're better than you. God loves you, RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE.
"God's love never ceases. Never. Though we spurn him. Ignore him. Reject him. Despise him. Disobey him. He will not change. Our evil cannot diminish his love. Our goodness cannot increase it. Our faith does not earn it anymore than our stupidity jeopardize it. God doesn't love us less if we fail or more if we succeed. God's love never ceases."
See? It never ceases. It never stops. He doesn't love me only when I'm good or when I pray. He loves me even when I curse at Him, yell at Him, BLAME Him. He loves me, flaws and all. If we fail in life, if we fail a test, or can't go out on a gimmick, He doesn't love us less, He loves us just the same. He loves us. Baggage and all.
"You are tweakable. Even if you've worried each day of your life, you needn't worry the rest of your life."How much comfort does this bring?! I'll tell you just how comforting this is for me- INCREDIBLY!!! On the days I feel my problems consume the best of me, I remember this line. And I smile. Even if it's hard to, I know that there is a reason for all the madness. That my bestFriend has a reason for everything in my life.
"It's one thing not to know. It's another to know and not learn."
Ouch. Ouch ouch ouch. Can this affect me and hit me more? That's the thing about Him. He won't tell you "Hey, don't do that. That's not right." He'll let you do it. He'll let you make a mistake. Or two. Or three. He'll allow you to screw up royally and as many times as you want to NOT because He gets pleasure out of it, but because He knows you need to learn on your own. At your own pace. He doesn't pressure. He doesn't blackmail. He doesn't try to turn you into something you're not. He lets you be you. How many friends can you say are willing to do that for you?
Which brings me to the last quote I want to use for this quite lengthy entry:
"Let God have you, and let God love you- and don't be surprised if your heart begins to hear music you've never heard and your feet learn to dance as never before."
My life is still a work in progress. So is yours. I work on my life every single day. I'm sure you do too. I'm not telling you what to do or pretending to be some awesome God preacher that I'm not. I'm just speaking, from one person to another, about how I have found my bestFriend. How I have found my go-to ear for my problems and victories, joys and sorrows. I hope that in some way, you can feel the same way.
Here's a little prayer you can try saying not just for today, but for everyday :)
38 comments
Nag enjoy ako while reading this one. It's your life testimony so i don't think people can say that it's fake or you're fake. Life testimonies are the best, because they can't be stolen from us. As a Christian, meron din ako sariling testimonies. This entry is such an inspirational, love the qoutes, natamaan and na touch ako. Truly, God loves to us is undeniable. Jeremiah 29:11, is a very very nice verse. :))
ReplyDeleteThank you! I agree with you, we all have our own stories and our own opinions and feelings towards things so dapat respect lang all the way! Thank you for feeling the sincerity :) YES! I love that verse, we always mention it during Bible study. God always knows what's best for us and His plans for us are beyond what we can ever comprehend! Plans of goodness and joy! :)
DeleteSeriously I'm *teary-eyed* while reading this entry I don't know why too but maybe because I am feeling the same way as what you feel I also turned my back from God but now I'm coming back to the heart of worship and its all about him. I couldn't just know how to thanks him that much because even if I turned my back on him on the day that I called him he still turned to me. We really have the most awesome God karls. (This is Krish admin of Nics and Karls) Thankyou for this entry I have learned so much from it.
ReplyDeleteHi Krish thank you! Yes, as long as we find ourselves going back to Him, it will not matter how long we've been away. He has always loved us and will continue to love us no matter what. I'm so glad you enjoyed this entry! :)
DeleteKudos! This one is the best blog i've ever read. Amen! Keep it ms. Karla :)
ReplyDeleteAwww shucks. I'm so kilig naman! Thank you so much!!!! :)
Deletethank you for writing this ate Karla, it made me feel that I am not alone too... now, i can relate to you because i am also feeling that everyone left me, but i believe that God will always be there with us through thick and thin :D this inspired me to just PRAY whenever i feel this way again :D
ReplyDeleteYES! Remember that I wrote this about a year ago, and my life has totally changed since then. I no longer feel alone because I have realized that I have my family, my Bubba, a small but GREAT group of friends and of course, THE BIG GUY UP THERE IN HEAVEN. We are never alone. Whether we like it or not, GOD will always love us :)
DeleteAmen to this. Love this entry! People should realize that no matter what we did wrong before, there's still one man who'll accept and love us and that is God. :)
ReplyDeleteExactly! :) How can we not forgive people when God forgives us everyday! :)
DeleteWow :) cant think of anything more to say but thank you! :) that was refreshing!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad! Thanks for reading! :)
DeleteBEST blog entry I've ever read!! I can relate sooo much with it, with you, Ate Karla. I had problems with friends too that I thought were my closest and bestest friends. Well, anyway, it doesn't matter HOW MANY friends you have. What matters is the QUALITY of friendship. :) and I really believe that GOD will NEVER BETRAY us, will always love us unconditionally, and will always be our BESTFRIEND (with the capital F as you say it. hehe). Keep the inspiring entries coming, Ate Karla!! XO. <3
ReplyDeleteExactly! QUALITY over QUANTITY I always say :) I am so happy you enjoyed this entry and were able to relate to it. Thank you for commenting, it means a lot! :)
DeleteHope you don't mind if I'll quote some of my fave lines. :) and just one question? Do you know where I can watch the Carrie Diaries? Thank youuu!:)
DeleteSure! I download my episodes from kat.ph :)
DeleteSo inspiring! AMEN to this one! :)) Keep publishing more...
ReplyDeleteThank you! I will! :) Hope you come back for the other entries too :)
DeleteHi ate karls! Know what this is my second time reading this entry. I really love it! Btw, are you a Christian? I am kasi and we share the same views in life. And we have the same BESTFRIEND!! yipeee. I consider him my Father, my BestFriend, my Savior, my Conqueror. hehe. This entry made me feel good. Im having a problem kasi with myself na sometimes ayoko na, gusto na sumuko. But then again, i remember His word, "never will i leave you nor forsake you. Hebrew 13:5 - thats why i try my very best not to give up. hay mahirap pero so far so good. can i ask a favor? can u please pray for me? i know this is weird but if you will, THANK YOU! So yeah, im glad na you were able to share "again" entries like this one. Pls do more!! and btw, are you reading christian books? sobrang madaming magaganda and inspiring. :) God Bless you! :)
ReplyDeleteAww your second? Wow, I'm so glad you took the time to read it again, I hope my message was clear- well, not MY message but HIS. We both know He basically inspired me to write this so I'm glad people have been messaging me how it has in some way, touched them. The Lord is amazing!!! :)
DeleteI am not offically a Christian but I would like to be, someday. I am still in the process of working out what it is I plan for myself and what God plans for me. If He sees me being better as a person with a different Church and group, then so be it! Only time will tell but for now I am constantly praying over it and asking for His guidance. :)
Yes! In the times that we feel we can no longer go on, that's when we need to pray and believe that there is an end to the madness, an end to the pain. That He will never leave us or make us suffer for no reason. All in His timing I have learned.
Of course I will pray for you! Believe it or not but I pray for people that ask for prayers- even Twitter followers and blog readers like you! I tryly believe prayer is a gift that we can give one another that will really mean a lot and help a lot. So yes, I will pray for you. :)
I haven't bought one in a long time but I'm hoping to complete the Max Lucado collection I have started. Soon! God Bless sweetie!
woah! way to end my day. thanks for replying, and this is quite a short one huh :) and thank you again for including me on your prayers. Glad that you plan po on reading more books. you could also try Joshua Harris' books. good ones too. and are u familiar with "the purpose driven life" its a popular christian book.. i started to read it when i was in highschool and im now graduating in college. you can read it. it has 40 chapters. and you can read 1 a day then ponder on it. Thats one of my favorite devotion books actually. hehe.
ReplyDeleteanyway, how's TOP? any updates po? will you be uploading those here or in tumblr? im following you on twitter too kaso kinda shy to tweet you eh :) hehe God bless po again and again. :)
This is what I like about your blog -- Sharing your experiences and simple joys that would not just make us kilig or laugh, but also it gives lessons. And I really learned a lot and realize many things while reading this. Thank you ate Karla for this inspiring entry.
ReplyDeleteYay!!! You got a lesson from it! Effective na pala blog ko YEHES! Haha aww thank you sweetie- yes, I really do try to make this blog more than just pictures and kwentos (though I am very madaldal) I really want people to stop and appreciate all the simple joys in their lives and all the little blessings God gives them, everyday. :) Thank you for your comment and for reading it!!!
DeleteGuess I read it a little late. HAHA. Anyway, thank you for posting this. It truly is inspiring, refreshing, and awakening, most especially. Please do me a favor and keep posting some more, ha! :)) I totally wouldn't mind going back to read more of your entries. :D THANK YOU! YOU'RE THE ONE I LOOK UP TO AND I TRULY MADE A VERY AWESOME CHOICE. :)
ReplyDeleteBetter late than never I always say! Haha :D Awww thank you, I'll be sure to post some of my old blog entries from my Tumblr- I really think some are worth posting again. I'm glad you found comfort in this entry. Know that the biggest and best comfort is from the Big Guy above! :) Thank you... I will never get used to people telling me that in some ways they look up to me. It's so touching. I wanna cry HAHA no joke :(
DeleteNakakaiyak and heart breaking. Everything in here's true. Tinamaan ako. This just made me realise everytime I talk to him and he listened everyday, he was already my first and very last friend na hanggang sa huling hininga ko sasamahan pa din ako. #lol
ReplyDeleteBut it's no reason to be sad! It's a great thing to realize how we've been towards Him and if we can change for the better, then that's the best! He'll always wait for us, patiently. That's what I love most. So come on, it's time to be better and build a strong relationship with Him! :) I know you can do it sweetie!
Deleteate karla, this is so inspiring.. l have problem kc with my friends and this blog really help me.. l have friends who were also wrong for me. yah we've been friends for a year but now were no longer friends na. kc sila ung tipo n kapag nkharap ka they are good pero pg talikod mo kung anu-anu na ang cnasabi in short (backstabbers,plastic), tska magaling din clang mg judge ng ibang tao.There also comes a time that my parents want me to stay away from them becoz they are bad influence daw. now lm no longer with them, tapos ako nmn ang pnag uusapan ngyon, pero with this situation l had found who my true and real friends. ate karla l dont know wat to do now.. :(
ReplyDeleteThose are the worst kinds of people.. I'd rather have those that are straight forward and tell me things to my face. I'm so sorry to hear that you had to experience people like that. Just pray my dear, it's hard now because it's still fresh and you miss the people you THOUGHT they were- but they're not really like that. Don't feel bad about cutting ties with people who are bad for you- it just means you're leaving room for those that will be GREAT for you. God never takes away without giving a 100x more! :)
DeleteVery inspiring! It's really great that you shared your thoughts about Him. :) I'm sure you touched other's hearts and influenced them in some way. You know, you have a lot of readers kasi. Haha naks you already! But seriously, I really find your testimony encouraging and moving. :) God bless you! Hope to meet you soon! :)
ReplyDeleteME ALREADY! Haha but thank you for that, it really means a lot. My heart is so fat! Ahihi :)
DeleteHi Ms :) ngayon ko lang to nabasa. at SOBRANG GANDA NYA! Nakakainspire talaga. Halos maiyak na ngaako habang nagbababasa e. Ang galing, parang gumaan yung feeling ko. Parang nasagot yung mga problema ko. Ang gaganda din nung qoutes na nilagay mo
ReplyDelete"Don't confuse God's love with the love of people. The love of people often increases with performance and decreases with mistakes. Not so with God's love. He loves you right where you are."
Gusto ko 'to. Habang binabasa ko yannagflashback sa isip ko yung mga taong nanakit sakin. Yung mga taong iniwan ako. Siguro nga kasi hindi sila naka destiny na makasama natin sa buhay kasi may mga MAS higit pa sakanila. Favorite ko din yung picture ng grass, nainspire ako sa message. SALAMAT dito. tatandaan ko lahat ng andito sa tuwing magkakaproblema ako. :)
You're so welcome! I'm amazed at how this entry has touched you and made you think things over... I promise, God is so amazing and He knows exactly how to speak to each and every one of us. :)
DeleteWow. Just plain inspirational. I now wonder how you became a Christian. Have you always been a Christian ever since?
ReplyDeleteThis blog made me reminisce my freshman year in college.
I thought it was best to stay with my 'friends' because I would be able to secure 'relationship' with them. That I won't be a loner staying or watching from the corners of a seemingly bordered wall. Well, I made myself believe it was best to stay and follow my 'friends' with whatever they do.I was still a baby Christian then, and I didn't know what to do. I felt helpless and overwhelmed with the transition, also add it to the situation that I didn't live with my family. I was alone in a place that made it merely impossible to feel safe. I had to secure myself.
But then again, with continuing Bible studies, and by joining Campus Crusade for Christ I have come to learn the true meaning of being alone. Now, I choose my friends very well, according to God's will. I no longer felt alone, because I know God's always with me, til' the end of time.
Thank you Ate Karla! I know I've been commenting and it's already 1:14 am, but yeah, I just had to do this so you would know how much I appreciate your blog so much. :)
Roman Catholic, actually. But I really am finding myself on a journey towards becoming a Christian- I have been able to find more peace and love through Bible Study and worship. I don't know what God has in store for me but I am learning as I go. :)
DeleteAMEN! God will always be with us and we do not need to rely on anyone other than Him. He will provide and He is MORE THAN ENOUGH. :) Thank you for reading my blog and thank you for sharing your story!!! :)
I love this blog super.. I can very much relate when I read your feelings and thoughts about Him :) . Im definitely sure that you've touched the hearts of those who have read this and Im one of those :D thankyou for posting this , I hope that you'll continue to inspire others with your entries :)))
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! I hope my other entries will be able to touch and inspire others too! I just want people to be able to smile when they read a blog and be inspired and not intimidated :)
Deletethis blog made me cry ate Karla :( Actually not only this entry but the previous ones too. :') I've been going through something hard right now and the first thing that came into my mind was to read your blog even though I've read them for several times na. It just inspires me to be a better person. Thank you ate Karla! God bless you always. I love you! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for reading my entry! I hope you enjoyed it. :)